Wednesday, May 5, 2010
my thesis version 1
Version 1... for now.
I want to add to it.
I still hate myself for recording the reaction in the theater then deleting it while i was half drunk. I prepared for that!!! I prepared for that!!!! DANG IT!!! I will never get it back again!!!!!! My first screening in the theater!!!! T_T I am so mad at myself.
Anyways.... what's passed is passed.
I am not thrilled with my work anymore anyway, but i still love it, right now i am just too tired. 2 days screening straight.
Again, thank you SHELLY for letting me stay over at your place. If it wasn't for your kindness I would have to hang out there in a cafe/pub until 4 am in the morning. XD
Then a bunch of other things, too much screenings, too much city.
i want to curl up in bed, shut myself in my room for 2-3 days, and not care about anything in the world.
To be honest, I feel like shit right now, from the tireness, and from the critiques I have been getting on its imperfections. And needles gets me more than honey at this point, as much as i want to treasure the good comments, the praise, and knowing there's no perfect film.
I know it's good, I know I can improve, and I can't say "I am done and I don't care anymore."
I want it to be better, what sucks is that... I thought I could feel better than how I felt after my second year and third year screening, but it turned out I felt the same, like crap. Not very satisfying.
With all said and done, i still enjoyed the time at the screening, us friends congratulating each other, and so on so forth.